There are some times when I feel absolutely delighted to be an atheist hidden among thousands of Christians. This is not one of those times.
I walked across campus today after a conversation that signaled the end of another friendship. Thinking, this is what it feels like to be alone. It sucks.
Though I’m still in the closet, I’m no longer pretending to be a Christian. That means I don’t take part in a large percentage of what goes on on campus. I can feel people mentally shrinking away from me, even people who were perfectly fine with my questioning of Christianity a year ago.
I have nothing against Christianity and Christians. I’m not trying to deconvert people. I just don’t understand why a single atheist among Christians is so threatening to them.