I had a normal conversation yesterday.
This is a big deal. I can say with 95% certainty that I have never before had a normal conversation at Wheaton. Normal is something I usually only experience when I leave Wheaton during breaks or visit friends who don’t go to Wheaton. I can’t really define it, and most of the time it’s not until I experience something normal that I notice how much abnormality I’ve been marinating in.
It’s not that atheists are normal and Christians are not, but it makes sense for conversations at a Christian college to not be normal. There is so much pressure for everyone to be a certain way, and to talk in a certain way. I could practically have a Wheaton conversation in my sleep, it’s so formulated. Still, most of the time I don’t feel like people are trying to be someone they’re not.
Un-normal conversations are more than just formulaic. They somehow feel like they’re going against human instinct. It’s not just about being yourself; there are plenty of people who don’t act like themselves and but still act normal. Conversations here just doesn’t flow in a natural way for me, though it may be natural for the other person. It seems like they are somehow trying not to be human, or maybe we are human in not quite the same way. I really don’t know how to describe it.
I had a normal conversation. There was nothing spectacular about it. It was just so… normal.